future undecided......

It's gonna be June soon..every1 is entering uni or college or getting something done for their future..but dear me is still stuck wondering what's gonna happen to me..what uni offer will I get, will I get the course I want, can I be who I want to be, or does God has other plans for me......

It definitely suxx to not know what's installed for you..

I definitely trust God has a plan made and carved out for me, but this is a whole new feeling to me. My dad always has something planned out for me, and I've always "blindly" followed this plans of his; from pre-school, primary, secondary and form 6. But now I want to have my OWN life, and this is a whole new experience for me; if you get what I mean. I should've done this back in form5. I should've taken a loan and done my sound engineering back then, but good old dad say it's a useless course and I should go form 6 then take a course which has a secured future. Naturally, I did it his way only to obtain results that has taken me far from my dreams. So now, things are gonna go my way, I've planned it all out; but my only worry is I cant get into mech eng which is the first stepping stone over this big river in front of me. This feeling of not knowing is kinda new to me, but I know I have to trust God and there's a first time for everything. And financial support will only be supplied till the end of my Mech Eng course. So here goes nothing and everything, there's definitely no room for mistakes if I want to get what I want now.

McD has always been asking me how's things between me and my dad, and everytime I wish I can tell her some good news. Things have been different between me and my dad ever since I decided to do things my way. It suxx enough that he doesn't support me, now he's not even talking to me unless it's ordering me to do something. I have a feeling that this is gonna last till I prove to him that my way is not wrong. So McD, if your reading this, you can kinda expect what I'll answer you for the next 10years or so. I definitely want things to be fine between me and my dad, but if I want to materialize my dreams, this has to happen.

Sorry dad, I have dreams of my own......