future undecided

It was hard to understand in the beginning why I did not get any offers from any universities. I've stopped trying to understand what exactly happened, it's M******A nothing needs understanding (even studies, just memorize everything like a photocopier and you'll score). I called up the UPU to confirm that nothing went wrong with my application, and they too agreed that nothing went wrong. However, if nothing went wrong I should at least receive something, and I question them on this, all they said is "buat rayuan" over and over again as if they were trying to avoid something. So being a blind man leaded by the blind I did my appeal. My 1st appeal was UPM- mechanical engineering, UMS-mechanical engineering; 2nd appeal UM-mechanical engineering, UMS-mechanical engineering; my last and final confirmed appeal that I sent was UMS-mechanical engineering, UTeM-automobile engineering.

There were certain factors that brought all that changes in my chioice of university and course:
1. Mom saying that why must I be so single tracked mind just wanting to do mechanical engineering (which is not exactly my 1st choice). This advice from mom brought to my decision of applying for automobile engineering..my 2nd love

2. Jeffery's advice of scouting out unis by calling up and confirming my eligibility and also confirmed seats available in the unis. Where I decided not to apply for UPM, according to their staff they have a long waiting list for mechanical engineering but UM does not for many pulled out due to s.ships.

3. My love for sound engineering has pushed me to continue striving for a spot in mechanical engineering. The only course available that has a link to sound engineering (based on the courses offered in local universities and availability of sponsorship[dad]).

So, in the end I decided to stick on to mech eng as my 1st choice but automobile as the 2nd as a backup plan just in case I am not "eligible" for M'sian standard of mech eng.

IF everything fails..than brace yourself people in Ipoh......you'll have to bear with me for another 6months..hahahahaha(i totally don't want to celebrate my birthday in Ipoh, I wanna study). During that 6 months I tot of taking up a tutoring or temporary teaching post, just to confirm that teaching is totally not my field, and hannah lee might be my guinea pig. lmao. Then coming January I'll have to scout for private universities (which most probably will be UTAR, Setapak; Yang n me are inseparable i guess..haha). I was thinking of UNITEN actually, hopefully their fees remains the same next year.

Now, I'm wasting precious time here waiting for further results to be released on the 10th of July. Till then, pray for me and please find me when you're free; I'm bored.

Stucked...

As promised..I got the results for my uni application..and im updating now..this is gonna be like the worst update there'll ever be on my blog:

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No Updates

Sorry guys..this tumbling piece of block is juz rolling by..down with a flu and a high fever..wun be updating till after i get my uni application results..which will be on the 19th..crappy gov

Sports Camp

I had a wonderful weekend..the best was playing paintball..although my team only won once..but we planned perfectly & played our roles..but it was just bad coincidences that caused us to loose. Ian and I was like running around killing ppl, but i guessed we shud'nt be so lenient on them..haha

frisbee was amazing to..but again lost..haha had to ply on handicap status..cheong especially..we weren't allowed to catch the frisbee single handedly..which is gd in a way..giv chance for th shorter ones to ply on an equal lvl wif those hu r taller..haha another game im frustrated about is the iron man challenge..in a particular station, we were required to fill up a bottle wif water by dipping our hair in a pail n letting the water flow from our hair into he bottle..they had to ply dis game just after i got my haircut..dang!haha but all in all im really happy that every1 enjoyed themselves, we could run things according to plan, youth Sunday was a blast and no serious injuries (other than Kelvin's) occurred during the camp..

next up..worship conference..gotta go to church later to paint the parking lots, check the comps, hav a meeting then band practice..i love band practices the most; u get to c Mark n Eugene in action, together!!haha

future undecided......

It's gonna be June soon..every1 is entering uni or college or getting something done for their future..but dear me is still stuck wondering what's gonna happen to me..what uni offer will I get, will I get the course I want, can I be who I want to be, or does God has other plans for me......

It definitely suxx to not know what's installed for you..

I definitely trust God has a plan made and carved out for me, but this is a whole new feeling to me. My dad always has something planned out for me, and I've always "blindly" followed this plans of his; from pre-school, primary, secondary and form 6. But now I want to have my OWN life, and this is a whole new experience for me; if you get what I mean. I should've done this back in form5. I should've taken a loan and done my sound engineering back then, but good old dad say it's a useless course and I should go form 6 then take a course which has a secured future. Naturally, I did it his way only to obtain results that has taken me far from my dreams. So now, things are gonna go my way, I've planned it all out; but my only worry is I cant get into mech eng which is the first stepping stone over this big river in front of me. This feeling of not knowing is kinda new to me, but I know I have to trust God and there's a first time for everything. And financial support will only be supplied till the end of my Mech Eng course. So here goes nothing and everything, there's definitely no room for mistakes if I want to get what I want now.

McD has always been asking me how's things between me and my dad, and everytime I wish I can tell her some good news. Things have been different between me and my dad ever since I decided to do things my way. It suxx enough that he doesn't support me, now he's not even talking to me unless it's ordering me to do something. I have a feeling that this is gonna last till I prove to him that my way is not wrong. So McD, if your reading this, you can kinda expect what I'll answer you for the next 10years or so. I definitely want things to be fine between me and my dad, but if I want to materialize my dreams, this has to happen.

Sorry dad, I have dreams of my own......

Horrible week..Sunday service worship session was a wreck..The stage monitor weren't working,caused Kelvin to sing out of tune. Kelvin had to drop his guitar n walk to the other corner with a working stage monitor. And all I could do is stand and watch all that happen.sux!!!!!!!!

Things got better in the afternoon. Took Eugene to JJ, he wanted to buy a guitar pick for Kelvin, went back to church, set up stuff for worship, SPY ran smoothly, and things went awry for me again. I felt this burning sensation in my joints, that only happens when I'm down with a fever, but my temperature was ok so I played football. After playing for half an hour, a terrible pain came to my chest I knew for sure i was gonna get sick. True enough, my temperature shot up to 41 yesterday, had a splitting headache, threw up like some cannon with spew as ammo & was so dizzy that I walked like some drunkard.

Had my first ever heated argument with my dad, I never raised my voice with my dad, but he crossed the line this time. Kept saying there's life outside the church. He indirectly called me stupid to. "You've been reading the bible for so many years now, & you still have to read it everyday". wth man. Then he claimed that the church deprives the children of their study time, accused me of running activities to distract the youths from their studies. Come on dad WE'RE trying to keep them in school by running activities for them, not ask them to run activities & skip school, get your facts right. He really pissed me off that day, he even challenged me to leave the house and see whether working in church can keep me alive. Typing out this post makes my blood boil so hot that i feel my headache coming back again.

DAD!!!!!!!!!!!

What so hard to und dat im no psychic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My dad thinks im a psychic..he doesnt open his freaking mouth and he expects me to noe dat he needs me to be at home..n bcoz of his amazing conclusion..im not allowed to spend so MUCH time in church..he's a pain in d a**!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1